Sweet Lucie, You’re 6 months old today! You’ve been with us for half a year. Six months of daily snuggles, seeing you change little by little but still being shocked when I realise how much you’ve grown; six months of hating to hear you cry, and wondering how I’m ever going to cope with releasing […]
It’s still hard for me to talk about Lucie’s birth without feeling tense, defensive and sad. Nonetheless, I want to write a bit about my experience of birth as part of Birth Trauma Awareness Week 2018. This isn’t a ‘birth story’, but a discussion of how I felt about the birth. I hope that people […]
I’m only 4 months into motherhood, but I’ve learned some things that I wish I could go back and tell my pre-motherhood self. Here are some of those things. Dear First Time Mum, The first thing you should know is that the beginning is likely to be very hard – harder than you think. I […]
I wrote a post that I wanted to publish on Mother’s Day, and then I realised it was a load of crap so I didn’t. So instead, a day late, I’m posting this reflection on motherhood, 7.5 weeks in (so clearly I’m an expert). Motherhood is… Motherhood is wondering whether your love will be enough […]
When I was a kid, I was OBSESSED with names. I drove my parents, and probably anyone else I encountered, crazy with “Do you like this name?” “Do you like that name?” “Do you prefer this name or that name?” Finally, an aunt bought me a Baby Names Around the World book for a birthday […]
Dear Baby, Today is the day that you’re meant to be born, although as such, I’ve always assumed that today is the day you’re least likely to be born. I saw the doctor yesterday, and she told me that there’s a “good chance” that you would come in 2-3 days, meaning tomorrow or the […]
Advent is always my favourite time of year. Although for many people ‘Advent’ doesn’t mean anything much except a calendar that gives you an excuse to eat chocolate every morning, it is one of the most important seasons of the Christian calendar. It’s one of the two periods of the year that are meant to […]
The first few weeks of pregnancy were full of extremely mixed emotions: I was ecstatic that I would become a mother, the single thing that I had pointed to for my whole life as THE VERY MOST IMPORTANT THING AND IF I DON’T DO IT THEN MY LIFE WILL BE FOR NOTHING. I wasn’t particularly […]
The Chip In My Tummy 